I just viewed a comment Jim left after he viewed the slide show (see previous post) He watched it at a time when he needed to and thought how great God was with timing. Amen. I then clicked on Dusty's link who directed me to Craig Hick's blog. Go read Craig's blog. Now. Then come back and read on.
Go on. Go. Read.
Wow! Talk about timing. What amazing words that brought me to body shaking sobs.
My anger has destroyed my life. Its cost my everything. Literally. I am on my knees, bare and humble before God.
But, that's the good news! Seriously.
While I am truly brokenhearted and crushed in spirit, my fall has made me cling on to the one true being who can save me. My heavenly Father. My suffering has restored my relationship with Him. I know I have many dark days ahead of me. My faith is being tested second by second. I am hurting in a way there are no words for. In a time where the days are so dark, I have a Light shining down on me. I have received more undeserved blessings this week than I can remember. I have found a new church family. I have reached out to faithful people who I had lost relationships with. I have found a new comfort and power in prayer. I have hope in Christ. I have no idea how things are going to turn out, but I have hope in Him because Christ tells me to. And I believe Him!
I am having a really hard day. I came across Craig's words at a moment when I was about to give in to the loneliness and despair. Gods timing is always perfect. Always.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
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Jeanne,
I don't know what's going on in your life - but I know that what you just wrote about God is absolutely true. Print it off and stick copies of it on every wall in every room. Soon the enemy will whisper contrary notions in your ear. Don't believe him.
God is good. God loves you.
I have no idea what struggles you have been/are going through, but I am glad things are looking brighter.
I know for me personally a church "family" is the key. I am so happy you have found one. It's amazing to me how much the presents of people can lift you up.
Jon and I were just saying last night how much we really didn't want to go to small groups I mean 1.drive 30 minutes one way 2. dealing with crabby children for not getting to bed on time 3. I was so tired and just crabby myself. I have to admit once we left I was feeling so much better. I mean seriously I can't explain it. I am just so happy God gave us the ability to have relationships to restore our souls.
Know that you are prayed for. :-)
Jeanne,
As hard as your life has become lately, I am so proud of the way you are handling everything. Your new-found dependence on God is beautiful to see. We'll keep praying. Love you. Mom
Jeanne,
I've been there. Not in the same way that you are hurting now, but we have all had devastation, heartbreak, loneliness, and doubt in our lives. Luckily, you have discovered what many people never do...that God will see you through. Your struggles right now remind me of one of my favorite poems, Footprints. Just remember that right now HE is carrying YOU! You are loved :)
Your words are inspirational, and they convey the level of wisdom and maturity you have achieved during some very difficult times.
Thanks for sharing such raw emotion. I'm sure it's helpful to you, but it also touches others. You have a lot of people who love and support you. Understand that God is loving and supporting you through those people during the dark times.
thank you. each one of you have filed me with comfort.
xoxo
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